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bipolar_denver
bipolar_denver
Bipolar in Denver
Mon, Aug. 25th, 2008 01:22 pm
it's only a legal victory, but still

http://www.canada.com/topics/news/story.html?id=891c59b6-97f4-45b4-886b-7fcee77e0c8a

I'm trying to think of a way to talk about this without sounding whiny, but I don't think there is one. Here it is: it's not okay to have any type of mental difficulty if you work at a corporation. Even normal mood swings and/or personal crises aren't ok. You have to hide the way you feel, take time off or hide in the bathroom.

I've struggled with this myself. As a person diagnosed with bipolar disorder, there are times when I smile and joke, and there are times when I struggle just to be civil. My years of self-examination, acupuncture and a wide range of other therapies have helped me greatly. Most of the time, I can make my moods reasonably homogenous.

Even now, though, there are times when I just can't hack it. I simply don't see the possibility of joy, much less feel it. I can't disguise it. All I can do is be polite to people. I can't muster enthusiasm. I can't coo over their pets/baby/latest toy. 

And because of that, people at work have labeled me as "inconsistent". Oh, that Jane, you never know what you'll get with her. One day she's all smiles, and one day she's as cold as ice.

Should I have to apologize for the faulty wiring in my brain? Should I take zombie mood pills, for example? Should I be allowed to make decent money? 

From my perspective, I am forced by mental issues to behave as a normal human, ie. a being with moods. Check out this article to see what I am talking about: http://chronicle.com/temp/reprint.php?id=tk1twsk466pmt0m7fj6py116kyc71fhv

I'd really like to know. Any input?

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